If anyone is around to read this, I could do with some help!
I haven't been practising any penance above and beyond the obligatory Friday fast for some time now. Although I have a cilice, I haven't used it much at all, and haven't use my discipline for at least a couple of months. I seem to have lost my reason for doing so, and my enthusiasm with it
I think part of the reason has been ill-health, feeling generally fragile and having to go into hospital in the very near future. I feel my body has enough to deal with at the moment without taking on any more.
I apsire still to practise the inner mortifications as a way of dealing with "self", and was wondering if others felt that there are times when this this has to be enough in itself? To be honest, I probably find the inner mortifications harder than the externals!
Exterior penance/mortification is something I feel is on hold for a while, but I am open to embracing it again at a time when I feel strong enough, but that time isn't now.
Any helpful thoughts?